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Much better.

Those of you who missed me last night should likely be thankful. You wouldn't have liked me anyway.

So it sounds like my mother's made her decision. Not that she told me right away, but, by now I'm mostly over that. I don't know when they'll be leaving, but since Ral is busily cramming for her SATs, I expect it to be sometime in late summer or early fall, thus making the summer interesting and chaotic, no doubt. Mom doesn't want to sell the house here, so I'll probably be staying here and renting the place from her. Any volunteers to be my roommate? :P

If last night is any indication, I shall have to prepare for a double dose of lectures in the weeks ahead, though. I can...sort of understand it. At the greatest extent of my very occasional persecution complexes, I get the idea that neither of them are really happy with me. Even when I'm reasonable, I know they see a good deal of flaws in the way I've lived. And so, really, do I.

But the upshot is that in however few months it is, they'll have to leave and let me sink or swim. And they don't know if I'm up to it. Or if I can really be happy the way things are. I could be doing better in school, yes. I could be a lot of things that are arguably better than I am. They think I've settled for the way things are, and are likely to develop...but have I? And if so, is it a bad thing? Am I really happy, or do I just feel happy because I know how much worse things could be?

I am thankful for them going, I think. For more than the usual reasons. I need to decide where I am before I decide where I'm going.

-D.

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( Walk among 9 shadows — Cast a shadow )
skloak
Apr. 12th, 2005 11:06 pm (UTC)
I *tried* to mention this, but you left without noticing me, so.. :P

You seem to have forgotten something (either that, or I'm missing out on a bizarre joke). Your first para goes like "Ral is busily cramming for her SATs, I expect it to be sometime in late summer or early fall, thus making the ." Making the.. loaf of bread? Or a pizza. I could go for pizza right now.
(Anonymous)
Apr. 14th, 2005 04:48 am (UTC)
Do you know what this means, C?
NERD HOUSE!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'm seeing you, me, Tommy, and Cunningham nerding it up 24/7. Daily deliveries of Bawls and ramen at our doorstep. T1 line for us to saturate with our gaming and torrentng. If there isn't at least a 3:1 ratio of computers to people, we ain't trying hard enough. Damn, we really might have to scatter some bras on spikes around the front door alongside my "NO GIRLS ALLOWED" sign as a warning to all lonely co-eds who might try to break in for some sweet, hot lovin'...

...Either that, or the Tylenol-3's finally starting to kick in...

-Nathan
paleshadow
Apr. 14th, 2005 08:22 am (UTC)
Re: Do you know what this means, C?
Believe me, I've had the same thought. Repeatedly. So you can't blame the painkillers. :P

-D.
vlosk
Apr. 14th, 2005 08:11 pm (UTC)
Re: Do you know what this means, C?
What, I'm not invited? ;)

Hope this all goes well for you; sounds like its going to be a rather eventful summer.
paleshadow
Apr. 15th, 2005 04:32 am (UTC)
Re: Do you know what this means, C?
Nathan doesn't know you, how could he invite you? :P Besides, I still have some little faith in the CleverSense people dragging you off to California.

Yeah, things are gonna be eventful, though we'll have to see just _how_ eventful they turn out to be.

-D.
saru_chan
Apr. 15th, 2005 03:44 am (UTC)
*hug* a house of geeks.. mmm reminds me of my own house except i'll allowed even though I happen to be the wrong gender :P Maybe it's because I agree to converting my computer to linux very happily. If you do the house of geeks thing can I get a day pass or soemthing one day so I can come and visit?
paleshadow
Apr. 15th, 2005 04:35 am (UTC)
*hugs and laughs* Hey, geek girls are always welcome. There aren't enough of you, we must treasure you like diamonds. :P

-D.

opendestiny
Apr. 23rd, 2005 06:43 pm (UTC)
Well, thats'a relief! :p
paleshadow
Apr. 24th, 2005 03:02 am (UTC)
What, you didn't know that already? I must endeavour to make my...regard for you more obvious. :P

-D.
( Walk among 9 shadows — Cast a shadow )