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I haven't written in a while, I know. I haven't really had much to write about. Life just drags on here, and I refuse to write about the mess in the Mideast because there is nothing new to say about the whole mess. It's depressing and maddening and repetitive and fucking childish.

"Palestine, put away that suicide belt. And stop telling the other kids at school to gang up on your brother."
"Israel, don't think I didn't see what you did with that missile. Hand it over. I said hand it over!"
"That's it! If you can't share Jerusalem, then I'm putting it back in the drawer!"

Peace will not be possible there until the extreme elements of both sides can either be effectively restrained, or persuaded that they can't actually exterminate the other side, and since I cannot in good conscience recommend simply making the entire Holy Land radioactive in some sort of geopolitical Mommy act, I tend to just stay quiet about the whole business.

Things have rather calmed down here, honestly. I think it was because Mom and Ral have mostly found other targets. Mom's, until this morning, was Diane. Differences have actually been settled with Diane, who now will not be moving out, at least as far as I can tell. I honestly don't mind this, to be fair. I think a lot of the trouble my family had with her was simply getting indignant on my behalf. I can't blame them for that, but aside from the kitchen thing (which has actually kind of worked out for the best) and occasional rants I've had, I've had next to no problems with her. Of course, I've had next to no interaction with her, which would definitely not have been the case if we were sharing cooking facilities.. The two of these are probably related.

Mom leaves tomorrow evening, and then it's just Ral and I for the next four weeks. I have to wonder how we'll get along. She intends to work, though, and she has more of a social life than I do despite not living here for a year. So I doubt she'll be sitting around at home and playing WoW all day. Maybe just five or six hours. *muttermutter*

Though to be fair, if she wasn't playing it, I probably wouldn't be playing it too much either. I've kind of burned out on it - there's nothing I really want to do that I expect to ever actually have a chance at. The people I hang out with there, both the Vixens and the Knights, are awesome, otherwise I'd have left ages ago, I think. As it stands, I'll likely take the excuse of all my evening classes next year scrubbing my attempts at raiding to cancel my subscription, once I get my sister's character transferred to the account she's going to open. Maybe I'll take a look at Burning Crusade when it comes out, but that's hardly a guarantee.

Especially since Kethry went and pointed me to a free 30-day trial of DragonRealms. Part of me still rebels at the idea of paying for a text MUD (which is why I haven't been playing there for the several years for which I've known about the game), but another part of me notes that a) I've done it before, with the far more odious payment model of Achaea, and b) DR is actually a pretty damned enjoyable game, with more population than all but two of the other MUDs I've played on (those two being Achaea and Shangrila, who are comparable), significant and varied actual RP with excellent staff support (the governments aren't run by players like Achaea's are, but it's just as possible for players to affect the world as a whole from what I can tell), and so-far enjoyable, rewarding and deep gameplay, all for the same price I'm paying for WoW, whose main selling point is "Oooh, shiny!" and "Oooh, easy!".

I've blundered myself into too many of these again, it seems. Stepping back from WoW will help, as will the fact that I've been on hiatus in Shang for something like a year by now for various good reasons. Still, I have trouble really leaving these games, I find, even when I barely play them anymore, because...wherever I take Arethian and/or Elianthe (The current names on my well-worn archetypes, I will admit. One of the reasons I come across as such a good roleplayer is because I'm lazy and really just play variations on a couple of concepts that I know absurdly well by now), they make themselves...not necessarily popular. You could poll the populations of any of the worlds I've walked and find that nearly nobody had even heard of my alter ego there. But they have always been well-liked by those that have known them, and often more than that. It's hard to leave that behind without feeling guilty, like one is abandoning friends who've done nothing to deserve it. I've only really done it twice so far, and one of them hasn't quite stuck yet. It may yet. The game is only marginally more fun than it was when I left the first time, for all that some of the company remains as good.

I used to be amazed by this, now I'm just amused. That's probably a good sign, and a lot of the research from my MU* paper last year agrees with me. It means that I know, and have internalised, that it's really me that's doing all of this, me that's garnering all those smiles. It is merely my greater comfort in the ether that makes it easier there. As I have grown mostly content with my own skin, that comfort and that charm has slipped its bars and emerged into the sunlight. With terrifying consequences for all involved. Run! Run for your lives!

There was more to say tonight, I think, but the part that wasn't just bitching about the heat (35C/95F today. Are you joking?) can really probably wait.

Safe travels to celarus and evilgetyours, who are both leaving for vacations in the next couple of days to visit places I'd love to go. Having not been able to decide whose luggage to stow away in, I've decided just to stay home and wish you both well.

-D.

Comments

( Walk among 4 shadows — Cast a shadow )
doctorcomputer
Jul. 23rd, 2006 06:08 pm (UTC)
Ooh, after my HellMOO stint I was looking at DragonRealms. If it's everything you hoped it would be, let me know.
paleshadow
Jul. 23rd, 2006 10:56 pm (UTC)
What am I, your MU* guinea pig? :P

-D.
paleshadow
Jul. 23rd, 2006 11:25 pm (UTC)
That said, so far I'm finding it fun enough to remain after my trial runs out, so take that as you will. YMMV.

-D.
kwirq
Jul. 27th, 2006 04:41 pm (UTC)
I've always been very tempted by MU*s. The whole idea of virtual reality completely mediated by textual description and commands is quite appealing, especially given my AI bent and after reading things like accounts of Julia.
( Walk among 4 shadows — Cast a shadow )